Thursday, December 31, 2015

My 2015

*I adopted Ms. Fang, former Queen of Meow Parlour and current Queen of Brooklyn & Awesomeness.
*I spent a glorious & life changing month travelling throughout England. My appreciation for the English countryside has grown expontentially.
*I made a lot of new friends & got rid of some not so good friends too.
*I saw LOTS of amazing art, everything & anything from live music to Stonehenge, from magic to English castles and everything in between.
*It took about a year but I quit seeing my therapist and found a new one that I really like and feel more comfortable with. 
*After 3 years of friendship & almost 2 years as a couple, I got broken up with & had my heart broken in the worst way I've ever experienced. I consider it an accomplishment since it made me realize that he's not the person I thought he was & I am better off without him. Plus I now have a damn good, almost unbeatable breakup story to tell. Good Riddance to him! 
*I met my current bf and he is most wonderfully handsome, kind & supportive person I know :) 
*I finally got my shit together and applied to school. If it all works out, I'm hoping to start next fall.
*I didn't die.
*I realized that I should love myself more & give myself more credit when it is due.
*I also realized that I need to stop apologizing, worrying or getting worked up about things I did not cause or that I have/had no control over.

Simply put, my 2015 was all over the place. I had some amazing times, some really shitty ones too but I wouldn't have changed one bit of it. I learned a lot about people and more importantly, I learned a lot about myself.

Like last year, I'm not making any specific goals. I just want to get better in anyway that I possibly can.
Here's hoping that I can continue to take risks, grow, love and be the best daughter, friend, partner & person I can be in 2016.

A quote from one of my favorite people on the planet seems like a good way to start off the New Year:

It's important to try to step into the unknown. - Joan Jett

I hope everyone has had a lovely holiday season. Enjoy NYE & be safe. I wish everyone a happy, healthy & awesome 2016.

Thursday, January 15, 2015


'It was the best of times, it was the worst of times...'

That Dickens' quote briefly and accurately describes my 2014.
(and yes I know it's already January 15th - whatever)

2014 was quite a year:
I saw friends, family, new states/cities, new places, nature, music.
I experienced art, love, life, loss.
I felt heartbreak, joy, carefree, love, depressed, anxious, frustrated, lost.
I gained memories, knowledge, new ink, new friends, advice, insight, love.
I lost Lucy, patience, time, hope and for a while, myself.

Over the last few years at the beginning of the new year, I've made a list of goals for myself for the upcoming year. I've been successful at completing some of the things on said lists (I did at least 3 of those things on that list!) but this year I think I'm taking a different approach. I'm not going to make a list or even write down what I hope to do or see or improve on. This is not to say I don't have some objectives in mind to tackle and accomplish this year because I do. I just feel that this year, more than any other, is a year of just being - being present, being in the moment, being surrounded by the people and things that I love, being proactive in moving forward, being mindful, peaceful, loving and most of all, being me.

So for 2015, I'm just going to be.